Music might be coming my way, finally

So I might have found a new band?

Last year was a torment for me, musically. The short of it is that my wonderful alternative grunge/metal band broke up, and in doing so it broke my heart. I wasn’t okay for months, and am still slowly healing. It takes time. This was a passion project, so it hurt to see it shatter.

Since then I’ve been looking for new opportunities to sing and collaborate with musicians. If you didn’t know, I’m a singer, I come from a long line of musicians, and have been told I sound like Kate Bush or Beth Simmons from Portishead. Two major vocal heroes of mine, so that’s cool.

I’ve been jerked around, messed about, ghosted, and even asked my age by some musicians, because if you’re not twenty and perky, they’re not that interested. I’m still perky, just not.. That sweet and innocent twenty-something bands are looking for. I get it, but I also don’t want to join dad bands, groups that just want to do covers for 3 hour sets, or ones that solely want to do music from the 70s or glam. Not my thing.

Didn’t realise I was so picky, but when it comes to your time, I’ve learned you have to be precious about it.

I’ve collaborated with a few musicians lately, laying down my vocals to their tracks. And while some like it and some don’t, I desperately miss gigging. I still meet up with my bass player and jam, and it’s great fun. But I miss having a complete band together and making those friendships. It literally is like a pang of heartache or bittersweet feeling when I’m at a gig, and I see bands that are fine, but I know we were better. I’m happy for anyone that has the guts to get up on stage and play to a crowd. But I want that back in my life.

So I laid down tracks for a musician today and I didn’t think it would go anywhere. The track I was sent was quite tricky, and more of an elongated guitar solo. But I managed some vocals, and the guitarist liked it, so we’re going to meet up and see if we could make something more than just a track. Maybe a band.

I’ve missed this so much. I desperately want this in my life again. So just maybe, if I’m lucky, this will turn out to be something good. Even if it doesn’t, I’m still laying down vocals for another musician who’s written a cover album and likes my sound, so that’s nice.

Here’s to music and singing being in my life again.

Wish me luck.

Cheers,

ELJ